* you and me *

you came over to my house...

it is like, actually i really wanted to bring you upstairs, but i don't know how... sometimes, i dont want to let you in my house but you were already in... but honestly, i am really glad you were beside me, put your head by my shoulder, exhausted, sometimes sleeping, still sweet...

it was a great night we spent together rather than overnight, "loitering" at mamak stall till the dawn... i hate the fact that we have to spend the night with others, maybe because i want to feel that you are totally mine... when we were with friends, that's how we were... can't talk with you only, but to all... and peoples want to talk with you too, which i cant talk with you too at that time... maybe i was full of envious, plus already pessimistic i was... but is was not their wrong... it was not your wrong... and i guess i was not wrong too to let you with your friends... because i guess true love based on trust...

but the question keep confusing me "open relationship ek,"...

but last night, i felt like you were mine, in my hand, me hugging you, and i really love that moment... you asked me why i like playing you hair? and of course, why i like hugging you? and the only reason is because of i was passionate with you... i am totally in love with you... that's all...

i kept playing with your hair... eventhough i see you slowly closing your eyes, pretending like you were relishing that moment, trying to deceive me so it seemed like you were actually not sleeping, but i didnt mind anyway... i got you beside me... and it was the first time i felt like i really can play with your hair without to think about the public reaction... didnt mind what lin or ahdan (if they were awaken by that time)will say, just thought about you... and me didnt mind you sleeping while me playing with your hair, because i love doing it... maybe the feeling of so close with you... and i love that moment...

until the last one minute, you told me that you have to go, leave me alone... but me myself still felt like it was not enough, i wanted to be with you more longer... and i dunno how come i passed the ego bridge of myself, asking you for the one precious minute... and you continue playing with my hair, comforting me... thank you for letting me with you... and thanks for letting me hug you... i felt like i didnt want you to leave me... and that's how it was started...

but that's night was really wonderful...

love you so much...

# posted by azy_jahat @ 11:37 PM